Saturday, August 26, 2023

Adventures of a young gay boy at Kings Mountain

Each summer I would spend 2 separate weeks at Kings Mountain campground, either at Camp Cherokee or Camp York. The first week would be at church camp with the church I attended while I was growing up. The second, usually after a week had passed but one year they were back-to-back, was Band camp with my High School. 

My church camp experience contained two oddities. The first was square dancing. At a Baptist Church camp. If you know anything about the Baptist denomination, dancing is a big no-no.
The second thing is especially odd to me as I look back on it as an adult gay man. Every week ended with a "Miss. Camp Cherokee (or Camp York) pageant. What you are thinking right now is surprisingly true. A drag show. At a Baptist Church camp. This was nothing like "RuPaul's Drag Race", however. It was balloons for brests and bad makeup and wigs. And no, you can rest assured I did not participate. The girls cabins picked the participants and they always chose the burly guys. The guys that were secure in their masculinity. I think the girls instinctively knew not to select a closet case like me. 

Homosexuality was never really openly discussed but there was one time that all the boys and men gathered around a campfire and we were told it was ok to tell another man you love him, as long as you didn't mean it "that way". I, of course, had no problem with this concept but I could tell it made my male friends uncomfortable.

Then there was the time in every church camp where they put on the sad music and got you feeling really low and bad about yourself until you couldn't resist going up to the preacher who prayed with you and you accepted Jesus as your savior. As always this ended in jubilation and one year I felt so good that I hugged a younger boy. And we kept hugging. So many times that one of the female counselors asked if we knew what had just happened. As if we did something wrong. I often wonder where that other boy is now and if he had the same struggles with his sexual identity.

Looking back on it, I'm confused as to whether I attended a progressive church, that ignored church doctrine about dancing, or one that hated women to the point of mocking them. I think both can be true.




Sunday, August 6, 2023

Retail woes

It's been a very long time since I've written a blog and the truth is there's not much going on except my new nephew. (William Daniel Wylupek...
He's early but healthy).I'm growing increasingly frustrated with the fact that I will never be able to afford a nice apartment on my own with a part-time cashier's salary and I'm reading horror stories online about people who left one retail job for another hoping for better hours and pay and not finding it. 

The fact is retail workers and others just aren't paid enough to support a decent lifestyle. I honestly don't know how my co-workers do it. The kids live with their parents but other than that it's beyond me how they afford rent or other monthly expenses. I'm fortunate that many of my bills are still paid by my father and I only pay $100/week that goes directly from my paycheck to his account. I do that so I don't even see the money it's already "spent".

I've been searching for jobs on Indeed and not many pay much more than I earn now. There are a few warehouse jobs but I'm not very strong or possess great dexterity. A job at Verizon seemed promising but I couldn't make the interview on Tuesday because I'm scheduled 10:00-6:00. 

I'm looking into copywriting which motivated me to blog this early morning (USA!USA!USA!). I just don't know if I have the skills to "market" myself into getting regular writing gigs.

Perhaps the USWNT will lift my spirits. I have a rare full weekend off and I'm trying to take advantage of it.